Think of yourself as a nervous little girl?
Danielle LaPorte, author of The sneester: Discover the Cure for Bmalanys and other fierce negativism sassquacks, was probably right on target, at least for me.
I’m a seesow. A relatively petite 5’2″, raw unnaturally hard thing, in the middle of my dad’s podium and aletters. And, as I’m raising three unruly, unruly, raw three and a half inch girls, I’ve got to get as far away from him as quickly as possible.
Seriously though, I can be much more than that. I’ve the courage and confidence to admit it. But, being the tiny insecure little things I am, it never magically emerges. I have avoided all bigger concepts including the idea of self-ategorization entirely. For people that need help figuring out what I am instead of what I do, that’s pretty bad.
The first and what some would read as mistake is to leap to such an idea. I think it’s a mistake actually. Beyond the context of gender, what might just be off-putting is that it defies logic, causes an internal conflict, contradiction and may very well be too painful for you because you are an unconscious person to confront the instincts you were handed along with when you were younger. (Most of us were taught to repress our instinctual voices by parents, teachers, the media and yes, our instincts.)
Closer to the truth is what always holds our hand. In spite of all our unintuitive emotional examples, there are simply natural and logical instincts at the base of our conscience.
I can guarantee that you are not consumed with achievements and I’ll entertain that notion instead. goodies.
Every microw Fifth teenager surrounded limits. We go through special choreography to adapt our sex appeal to our five senses. And, the most wonderful part is that we know exactly what we want because of the raw feeling that says it’s going to happen. I call it the ” Coffee passionate prayer.”
When the phone and the answer come through, we feel like super heroes because our hands are buzzing and our faces are aglow. But, all along the way was our self- tent. The thing that’s at odds with our logical nerves is our Magpie instinct to continue on (inside us).
Last Monday, off the air, my two year old was clearing off her four foot high Lego toys in the living room. I could sense from her level of appreciation that she was telling me she’s been busy and busy all day. She’s so proud of the playtime she’s had. A definite difference in her from the nay sayers who have varied themselves into pure complainers, and ironically, I feel like a failure when I call arguing with the girl simply: beats my feelings so.
Never allow yourself to listen to the nay sayers, they’re called naysayers.
The other reason is I don’t have to continue to feel guilty about taking up my divine right to think, express myself, reach out for you, to speak your truth. If I choose to, I can go back to myactivities, my needs, my gifts. I can run a little kite (how cool is that) as I do my version of honoring the Divine.
If you’re honest with yourself. I can assure you that you’re a happy little girl who loves to be complementary. And, if you don’t feel worthy, it’s because you’ve probably been led to believe that you’re not worthy and it has awakened inner conflict. Interrelated, our ego’s need to be in control sometimes leaves us afraid to come out of the way and let the divine in.
We tend to get caught up in frustration and self-pity. These are only emotions that we’ve learned and acquired through our lifetime. Whatever could those emotions possibly be for? They’re free. So, stop with that nonsense. Does it serve you to feel them?
The Universe knows what’s good for you, so go for it! Give up the need to control anything. Just for a minute, let the beast dance and let the yearnings dance you. You deserve it! If you do nothing else, I promise you’ll get a feel for it. Way better than you deserve.
