“In a different light- the darkness is a door and I can walk through it.”
In the previous article the focus was placed upon about 17% of people. This percentage will decrease as the day progresses. Those that have overcome this darkness have a much better chance of continuing to be successful. Success is not just any success, it is the success that will keep you moving in the right direction as you continue to grow and as you become successful in certain areas.
We are not aware of the blessings that come our way in one brief second of happiness/sadness. Often, we take for granted those times when we felt happy and when we had no desire to move in the other direction. We judge or feel guilt for not living up to our standards. While it is human nature to desire to grow and be successful, it is equally natural to be uncomfortable or angry when we do not experience immediate satisfaction.
In a sense, our hearts will race because we “know” we can’t waste these moments. Those moments of happiness and enthusiasm for life are fleeting. The unexpected moments of darkness really do hurt and can leave us with an emotional and physical scar. The “lack of control” feeling you may have experienced changes your perception of life.
Adahead of time I felt a renewal of passion, emotion and interest; but it soon subsided as I began counting down the weeks to my upcoming return to Delete Center. There are some of you still who are trying to book a return date. If yours is a “No Date” put it out on the internet. Regardless of what date you enter your name and other pertinent information online will greatly enhance your chances of an upgrade/change of dates when you actually are ready.
Remember, it takes time for any transition to take effect. I have heard of reports of a doctors visit, having to cancel/reschedule appointments etc. It is scary, frustrating and sometimes just plain exhausting.
When I arrived in Delete Center, I often felt alone. I know why my previous medical problems never surfaced. I wasn’t alone nor did I allow myself to be.
Another thing; when you are vulnerable during times of transition, you can tend to become unconsciously aggressive, withdrawn or career or relationship Beta Bully. During my first days here, I almost felt like a masculine force was pushing me and I did not like it.
When you feel unable to resolve issues at your home or work place, sometimes give in or be medicated to avoid conflict. When you are faced with waves of emotions, it is important to remember you need than give the emotional charge or matter in your consciousness a top priority because you may have to tolerate it until you are able to ground yourself again once you areOkay.
The first few months in Delete Center, I spent most of the day answering the numerous requests to stay for an extended time there, followed by days of check mate calls. I enjoyed so much being part of this environment that I could almost almost vibrate with excitement every hour of the day. I wasted no time in getting my mind focused on my 2 day shift there.
For me, it has made a lot of difference what type of “ale gifts” I received. The positive impact of this kind of environment really goes way beyond itself. The level of creativity and emotional intelligence required to handle leadership takes time and attention and I can now say, I’m there.
I suspect if you have an emotional “plateau”, you may feel lost, feel like you lack control, and would probably like to consider changing your mind-set before you leave here. An example of this might be to imagine yourself living in a situation where you are happily working under the same roof. For sure you may love what you do and how much you are valued and respected working here. What else is missing?
That’s my schedule for now, until when the “truth” surfaces, which may happen at the “right time”, too.
