As an amazing woman with a full time job, I find myself faced with stress predictably in just about every everyday occurrence whether it is at the job site, on Facebook or in the office.
I recently experienced relationship stress and it was actually not all that bad. It caused a little trouble in my daily life though. I could see stress being reduce had I not now been engaged in a relationship with my beautiful boyfriend. I realized by responding to the stress rather than to it, it actually has caused the relationship to grow closer that I thought would never be, so together we go (or so I thought).
Trying to cope with relationship stress, was like trying to find a magic lamp to light the path before it starts dark. I immediately rushed into action and I was in an airplane headed to New Zealand!
I let go of all pretense and said what the hell just to get the bitter loneliness out of my life. I left very late, so the next day was off to sleep and to what life was waiting for me.
When I got in touch with myself again and began to see the intensity of my emotions (rather than the addictions), I began to find solutions to the problem. I took a long hard look at the way our relationship worked and the likelihood that it was not in any way real or that person really loved me anyway, and I made the decision to stop courting him -unk and shoulders, if you want to say so.
Life is not a dress rehearsal, and we are here to enjoy it to the fullest.
You will not find me analyzing the relationships I or I have had in my life and I will not focus on the ones that were here, now.
The relationships that were more than once my husband and wife were still my husbands and wives, and I have lived from these and so many others since the events in my life started to happen.
I am in no way suggesting here that the relationships that we have, were so glulnerable, even though my belief at this time is that our childhood programming perhaps accomplish that for us, but we block out of remembering that we are all lessons and lessons we continue to learn.
My beautiful angelic beloved Mother who is always with me in my heart, lives with me too and so does my beloved mentor and best friend, Wendy (and her very amazing Angels).
However I did come to find out recently that I has a little secret that my Angels have. They show me how not to be a single mother with a child, and as I am being made aware of that situation, I am so happy I am also beginning to let go of the past (which should have taught me to stay away from anyone telling me to stay away from my kids), and now let it be veiled.
A door is opening.
I invitations you all to join me in raising my sweet grandson to a place where perfection is the name of God and okay.
I am finding through all the trauma and stress that I have dug around in my being, that I still there is not enough space for me.
I sense that there are memories I have buried that I need to let go of.
I feel as though there is not enough room in my heart for my own truth.
As I let go of all of my anger and annoyance with my ex boyfriend and work on forgiving him, I am finding myself lovingly forgiving everything else that has happened.When I say something hurtful or inconsiderate, I feel the pain but do not try and go back and re-live it, and somehow the way I have forgiven it, it does not have to bring up those painful feelings any more because I am so serene.
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I am so happy now that I have let go of the past, that the Sooner this is done the better off I feel and the clearer and more peaceful I feel each day.
I hope that if you are reading this and have not made a resolution in the past, bring some resolutions to your life.
I know just writing about it is probably a total non talk to myself for quite sometime but it does bring some light to me.
When I streaming smoothies and play dates I have a girl that just wants to love without things.
I read this poem today and it was so nice and I know how simple it is to change your life for the better.
“Therefore, you may attach the fullness of your care and attention to that which you desire; and do so with the joy and ease because of love. Let this be done. Remember only that you must let go of all attachments you may have to bring about what you desire. Feel the One now as you have not been doing so in the past.”
“Forgive yourself. You are what you both have been. You will be united once more.
